Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Respite Co-op
The next training for region 3 is coming up on December 3rd, 2-5:30 p.m. for any adoptive parents who want to join! Contact Carol 1-888-298-7562 to find out more info about how the co-op works and to rsvp. Child care provided.
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Some days are Hard...
Today I'm posting an email I received from a FIESTA family...how many of you can relate? How do you keep your head up when things are difficult?
I am exhausted today – things have been on edge with my kiddo and at every corner I find her trying to control, manipulate and turn our otherwise happy home into a state of chaos. I am trying to work through the process. But after the last few months I am having a hard time. Today I feel like she has had plenty of time , many years of therapy, and a loving family by her side and yet the ugly words and burning looks are still prevelant. Today I am tired. I want things to change but how? How does a child with RAD choose to make the first step to connection. That place where life is amazing and the child you longed for has become the child you have.
Today like many days I mourn the loss of a beautiful soul that may never know just how good a mother’s love is.
Since we have changed up our therapeutic parenting there are many new places which she is learning quickly to manipulate.
So I muster up every ounce of compassion I have and work towards loving her-choosing love over anger and resentment! It is not easy because I am angry – I am angry that this precious child has been disformed beyond recognition by the ghosts in her past. I resent that I want to love her – I want to do “normal” things with her-I resent that I want them more than her. It is hard to look at the 6 year old that plays dirty – and is wrapped in a teenagers body. The six year old who cant formulate sentences, make good choices and runs for any sign of connection.
But I try – everyday I try – everyday I move forward even if only an inch. Now, I know I am not alone. I have a good support network! I have people who understand what it’s like to live with a child from a hard place, and for now I still have my sanity!
I am exhausted today – things have been on edge with my kiddo and at every corner I find her trying to control, manipulate and turn our otherwise happy home into a state of chaos. I am trying to work through the process. But after the last few months I am having a hard time. Today I feel like she has had plenty of time , many years of therapy, and a loving family by her side and yet the ugly words and burning looks are still prevelant. Today I am tired. I want things to change but how? How does a child with RAD choose to make the first step to connection. That place where life is amazing and the child you longed for has become the child you have.
Today like many days I mourn the loss of a beautiful soul that may never know just how good a mother’s love is.
Since we have changed up our therapeutic parenting there are many new places which she is learning quickly to manipulate.
So I muster up every ounce of compassion I have and work towards loving her-choosing love over anger and resentment! It is not easy because I am angry – I am angry that this precious child has been disformed beyond recognition by the ghosts in her past. I resent that I want to love her – I want to do “normal” things with her-I resent that I want them more than her. It is hard to look at the 6 year old that plays dirty – and is wrapped in a teenagers body. The six year old who cant formulate sentences, make good choices and runs for any sign of connection.
But I try – everyday I try – everyday I move forward even if only an inch. Now, I know I am not alone. I have a good support network! I have people who understand what it’s like to live with a child from a hard place, and for now I still have my sanity!
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Book Club in Las Cruces focusing on The Connected Child....
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